What I can do is keep Him first while I wait for Him. Practically speaking, I continuously check in with God, meaning I am having a conversation throughout the day with Him. 

I hungered for someone to love me. I had a mild prognosis of desperation.

During the initial ascent and descent, my soul feared and loathed every bump and drop the turbulence brought. If you have ever flown in a plane, turbulence is common. It can be jolting.